I'm Ruben James, and over a thirty year period I discovered an amazing process that allows us to go deep inside of ourselves and finally understand why we live our lives the way we do, why those blocks and barriers are there, and, most important, HOW to overcome them!
This didn't come from airy-fairy wishing and hoping or endless talk therapy... it came from real, hard earned, hands-on experience.
You see, for many years I suffered from severe alcoholism, drug addiction and deep depression.
Looking back, there weren't many good times when I was growing up. My father was a very angry man… filled with rage, really.
Although I had no way of knowing or understanding at the time, he was deeply traumatized by the war. Although he survived indescribable hardships of war - the Russian gulags in Siberia and the slave labor camps in Nazi Germany, they left horrible scars on his psyche.
The one thing I DO remember is him screaming at me over and over again, "You're Stupid! You're Ugly! Nobody likes you! You'll Never have any friends! You'll NEVER amount to ANYTHING!!!"
My mother would tell me that he's just trying to "toughen me up" … that he wanted me to throw out my chest and say, "I'll show YOU!" and then somehow become a Superstar!
Yeah, right! That might work on breaking down Marines, but I was just a child, for crying out loud! (Which I did a lot of, by the way!)
Being a very sensitive child, needless to say, I took to heart all those negative things he pounded into me every day…and believed what he said.
I became socially clumsy, a loner and had very few friends. And, although I got excellent grades I had very little confidence in myself.
High school and then college saw more and more alcohol use and then drugs to ease the pain of my loneliness and lack of self-worth.
My young adulthood was spent being either drunk or stoned most of the time with a deepening depression setting in. Whatever friends and relationships I had always would soon fall apart.
One thing I did keep with me all my life was an ongoing interest in spirituality, parapsychology and self-development. And this always kept me looking for something or some way to help me out of the downward spiral I knew I was in.
Although I got a degree in social sciences and psychology in college, I found the classes to be a joke in that they did little but go on and on about why every therapy ever invented was flawed and therefore useless.
After college I looked into and tried everything from hypnosis to Eastern Philosophies to Martial Arts and Mysticism…all of them interesting, but of no real help with any of my problems.
It wasn't until a parapsychologist friend of mine who lived in the San Francisco Bay Area introduced me to her very attractive young assistant that things finally started to turn around for me.
The young assistant shared her deep involvement in Spirituality and Higher Consciousness.
Meeting The Teachers and Masters
I was soon exposed to "The Real Deal" as the San Francisco Bay Area and Marin County in the early 1980's was considered to have the most highly elevated spiritual and consciousness teachers and masters outside of India.
I had finally found what I was looking for that could possibly help me.
I totally immersed myself for the next seven years in studying and working out my inner demons with my teachers. It was Amazing! I stopped drinking completely for four years. I had a good job working in Silicon Valley. I started a 50's rock 'n' roll band and played paying gigs, something I always wanted to do. I even became a staff member at Hartmont Institute in San Francisco and taught Energetics. And, best of all...the attractive young assistant became my fiancé! Things were definitely looking up.
Then...everything came tumbling down!
I was suddenly and unexpectedly laid off from my good paying job. I could only find minimum wage menial labor work. I could no longer afford my studies or work out my issues with my teachers when they came up.
My fiancé and I still got married, but on our wedding night I got drunk! First time in four years! Then, we had to leave the Bay Area for good.
It was all down hill from there.
It was back to the booze and drugs and with no more support from my teachers or friends who were many miles away, the depression sunk its claws back into me again…with a vengeance!
I was back in the same bottomless pit of loneliness and self-loathing that I had lived with for so many years before. It was like living in a permanent bad acid flash back. Only now it threatened my very life!
And there I stayed...for Years!
Near Death Experience and Moment of Sobriety
It wasn't until several near death experiences by "accidental" alcohol overdose, (or was it suicide attempts?) that I hit absolute rock bottom!
It was in a rare moment of sobriety and clarity that I knew for certain that I had to either turn my life around very soon…or Die!
I started with white-knuckled determination, but knew it wouldn't last very long...it never did in the past!
So, I looked back on all of the many processes, exercises and trainings I had with my teachers and masters. And, although they came from different disciplines, I just felt that something would come together somehow.
Slowly, but surely, the Higher Consciousness processes began to open my mind to greater insights into myself than I ever had before. And, when I combined them with the Energetics taught to me by my Kung-fu masters, there were definite, positive and observable results.
And, I was also able to now utilize the latest findings in spirit, mind and body research and quantum physics and other studies.
It was fascinating to see them all come together like a big jigsaw puzzle!
The Tools Become A System
It didn't happen overnight, but over time I noticed that a system slowly emerged. A system that I was using over and over again with startling impact...every time!
I gained understanding of deeper parts of myself that I was never consciously aware of that had profound influence over my life.
I had realizations of how certain negative events in my past still had strong repercussions over how I reacted to people and situations. And, how once these events were exposed to the light of day for what they were, their power would dissipate and no longer poison my thinking!
In a nutshell, Conscious Awareness and Pro-active (instead of Re-active) Behavior changed my life!
I just stopped drinking spontaneously and my depression slowly dissipated!
It's not that I didn't get down at all... I still had ups and downs just like everyone. The thing is, I no longer plummeted into an unearthly black pit and STAYED there for weeks or months drinking and drugging myself into a stupor every day like I used to!
The Changing Universe
I started calling my system "The Quantum Experience" because it changed my entire universe and because it penetrates down to the quantum levels of your life.
I continued to do these sessions on myself, especially when times got tough or when I needed more clarity to keep me in that Pro-active state that allowed me to stay in control of both my inner and outer actions.
I also started using my system to clean up some of those negative habits that I collected that stuck with me over the years.
I stopped smoking for good and I lost over 40 pounds and kept it off.
I became much more open socially and started making real and lasting friendships with good people.
And, just before my father died, I went to his bedside. I held his hand and kissed his cheek and said, "I love you, Papa!"... and MEANT it! I now understood that he had done the very BEST he could with what he had. We smiled at each other when I left and that was the last time I saw him.
Other People and The Quantum Experience
I never thought of sharing my system with anybody because I thought it would only work for me. And, I wondered what people would think if I told them that I combined ancient mysticism, Kung-fu and quantum physics to change my life!
But it would come up in conversations with my friends more and more often about how much I've changed for the better and how did I do it?
And, they asked if THEY could do Quantum Sessions with me?
At first, I didn't think it would be possible for them to fully understand my whole system because over the years it became quite involved and it would take some time to explain all the details and intricacies, let alone actually doing the initial training it took to DO the processes.
But, the more I thought about it, the more I could see that they didn't really HAVE to know all the details to actually USE the system.
A formula evolved that didn't require intimate knowledge of the process, just an Intention to USE the process for a specific end result.
It was basically me facilitating the process while they actually do it.
So, I did sessions with friends to see if I could guide them through my system. And, sure enough...it WORKED!
ALL of us were Amazed at how my system was able to go to the very heart of an issue so easily and come to a resolution in only ONE session!
Here's what some of my friends wrote to me about their Quantum Sessions: